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I see my moods like the weather for people that don’t know about weather.
You can try to predict it, and you think you know what’s coming, but you really don’t.
So my PMS does not always come before that time of the month.
It could come before, after, or anytime in between.
Like today…

Honestly, I don’t know what’s gotten into me.
But  everything that you did just irritated me.
And you didn’t even do anything wrong.
Well you’re annoying, but it’s not something that I can’t tolerate normally.
But for some reason i just get annoyed at you for the smallest reasons.
I tried to not get mad and to not show it to you.
And after a while everything just got back to normal.
But then you would do something that just irritating.
And everything would start over.

I told you that I’m coming over your place to chill out for a little.
But 5 minutes I was there, I just wanted to go home.
You did nothing wrong, I just felt bad that I was such in a horrible mood towards you today.
And of course you didn’t notice because I didn’t show it.
And so i wanted to tell you "maybe I should just go home now, cuz for some crazy reason, I’ve been mad at you a lot today and I feel bad and I just wanna go home".

But then you told me to sit next to you while watching TV.
So I sat down
You put your arm around me
And started rubbing my arm and elbow.
.
.
.
And suddenly everything was fine.
Like nothing was ever wrong.
Like I was never mad at you.
As if my mood had been at the greatest the whole day.
I felt so at peace

And all it took was just a little rub.

Yes Baby, I know u never gonna read this. I know we fight a lot. I know that I might be just another girlfriend in your life. And this might be another relationship we’re gonna end in the future to move on to a better one. But I really thank the Lord that I have you with me today. You’re my support, my conscience, my mirror, and i love you.