I’m singing in the rain
Just singing in the rain
What a glorious feeling
I’m happy again
I’m laughing at clouds
So dark up above
The sun’s in my heart
And I’m ready for love
For love
Let the stormy clouds chase
Everyone from the place
Come on with the rain
I’ve a smile on my face
I’ll walk down the lane
With a happy refrain
Singing, singing in the rain
In the rain.
they say jealousy kills. maybe it really does. all i know is that it can struck me at anytime. one moment i was fine and the next i got huge rage burning inside me. I don’t even know why i could feel such thing when I don’t even know whether i like the person i’m jealous for. i don’t even know if this means anything. love.. or even like… is certainly complicated. and i know i said this a million times before, but i wish love is as easy as breathing. wouldn’t it be beautiful if love just come naturally and we don’t have to get hurt or feel jealous? but then, as i always say too, wouldn’t it be boring if all we feel is happiness. do we really thrive on pain and hurt. is happiness in relationship really hard to get. can we ever be with someone that u really like?
I guess i’m getting desperate. I guess i’m really losing my patience. I don’t know. maybe i’m just lonely. Yes, I’m lonely. so what can a lonely girl do.. just wait i guess.
After all of those hours we spent together, suddenly I saw you looking at me differently. Maybe I was just hallucinating or dreaming.. Maybe all of those daydreams suddenly affecting how I see you or how I think I saw you.
Suddenly, there’s that weird warm feeling, looking at you, looking at me, as if I were not one of your buddies, but as if I were a girl. Maybe I was just hallucinating.
Suddenly, I saw you smiling a lot when you talked to me, and I don’t even know why. Maybe I was just hallucinating.
Maybe you’re just acting normally, maybe you’re acting like how usually act, maybe I’m just making all of this up. I don’t know.
I don’t even want to say how I feel. I don’t even want to express how I feel. Because I like things how it is right now. I know I want a little more, but I certainly don’t want to change how things are right now. I’m too afraid to say or show anything cause I don’t want this warm feeling inside to dissappear.
If only life is like those in the movies where the main character always gets what she wants, … I wouldn’t have to worry and I wouldn’t have to think of any consequences.
If only….
I can’t remember why we fell apart
From something that was so meant to be, yeah
Forever was the promise in our hearts
Now, more and more I wonder where you are
Do I ever cross your mind, anytime
Do you ever wake up reaching out for me
Do I ever cross your mind anytime I miss you
Still have your picture in a frame
Hear your footsteps down the hall I swear I hear your voice, driving me insane How I wish that you would call
To say
I miss you
I miss you
(no more) loneliness and heartache
(no more) crying myself to sleep
(don’t want no more) wondering about tomorrow
Won’t you come back to me
Come back to me, oh
I miss you I miss you I miss you
*and suddenly I’m crazy about this song again
"Unfortunately, after you passed the age of braces and training bras…
responsibility can’t be avoided…
..either you face it or face the consequences."
–Grey’s Anatomy
Life is never a smooth sail.
Every now and then, you get a bump here and there. If you see it that way, you can say that my journey through the road called life has certainly been rocky and jolty, however you want to say it.
I don’t even remember when did it start or what triggerred it but i found myself blanking out a lot lately, and little unnecessary problems just started to arrive one by one. Starting from reformating my whol laptop, car’s battery dead, staying up late to chaperone 3500 teenagers. Yeah.. and that maybe just the tip of the iceberg.
And just like how there’s always an opposite to everything, a yin to every yang, my body and mind and soul unconsciously starting to find a way to balance my so called crazy life.
And so, as if i don’t have any problems, my body starts to find comfort in a way that is even not understandable by my brain. But the brain doesn’t always provide the answer; sometimes the answer lies in your heart. And so i ask my heart the reason behind the unusual activities of my limbs. My heart was silent.
… or is it yet to speak?
There are 12 months in a year
52 weeks
and 365 days.
It takes a person 6 days to work
1 day to rest
8 hours to study or work per day
3 hours at least to half-clean your room
1 hour to enjoy a meal
1/2 hour to enjoy a shower
15 minutes to write a short e-mail
10 minutes to change your bed sheets
5 minutes to make list of things to do
1 minute to yawn
1 second to wish that your holiday is longer
And the time it takes to think of someone you like
.inifinite.
.365 days. 24 hrs. per day. 60 minutes an hr. and 60 seconds a minute.
Your brain can definitely be funny.
Life is certainly interesting. You don’t know what to expect and you certainly don’t know what’s going to happen. There are times when you’re suddenly hit with images that you have had in the past. It’s like an old reel of film being played in front of your eyes; sometimes with different versions - versions of how you wish your life could have been before.
Then there are times when you see others with things that make you realize how lucky you are. There are other lives that make you look back to what you have, of what you take for granted and realized how great a life you have. At the same time you realize how you are not as strong as you think you are because you don’t have certain strengths that others have. And you are just amazed as how beautiful people could be, despite what they lack of.
And then there are other images that make you realize how little you are in comparison to the Almighty. You realize that in the end you have no control of life. You don’t know how long you will have the luxury of life. You don’t know how much time you have to appreciate life to its fullest. And all you can do is to be humble and to again appreciate life.
A lot of times you feel like the whole world is against you and you have the worst possible life. You feel like life is unfair that you will never be able to get what you want. And you hear voices in your head that tells you how a pitiful creature you are. But then if you look around, you are always reminded that your life is actually beautiful. And then you suddenly realized that you are a fool for thinking the way you did and you realized that you should really cherish your life.
And life /is/ beautiful in many ways. You just have to open your eyes and embrace what you have
.
.
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But then again, that devil in you will always be there corrupting your mind body and soul; testing the strength out of every soul.
I see a rainbow yesterday
But too many storms have come and gone
leavin’ a trace of not good-given ray
Is it because my life is ten shades of gray
I pray all ten fade away
Seldom praise Him for the sunny days
And like His promise is true only my faith can undo
The many chances I blew to bring my life to anew
Clear blue and unconditional skies
Have dried the tears from my eyes
No more lonely cries my only hope is for the folk who can’t cope with such an endurin’ pain
it keeps ‘em in the pourin’ rain
Who’s to blame for shootin cain into your on vain what a shame
You shoot and aim for someone else’s brain
Then you claim the insane and name his day in time
For fallin’ prey to crime, I say the system
Got you victim to your own mind
Dreams are hopeless aspirations in hopes
Of comin’ true, believe in yourself
The rest is up to me and you
–Waterfalls
